Thursday, June 30, 2011

I don't have any Thoughts

No tengo que platicarle

"It doesn't matter if we all die"----------------One Hundred Years

Music,
Simplicity... Freedom with the Summer Sun...

Sun of all Suns; Face of the sun in the face of us all.

Interconnected Spirit, regretibly fascinating my hindered soul
"just like the old days"
mmmmmmm. the spirit of now absurdly wrapped in the spirits of yesteryawnder...

Focus, English Master...
Look it up! SEARCH
for a dominion of knowledge...

Porque no te pones a dejarme en pas!

A window into the world, a window of real and not real.

"Put on your Pout"
put on your fear...
scribbles from the imaginations gallery of paint brushed words stimulating the anti-thesis protagonists pit falls into oblivion.

But coming right back! Standing up... sitting down.

Sh*t C*nt... I am taking a shower.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

PIMP

If I were a pimp what would I tell my GRRLS? Maybe, that patriarchy encompasses all that we are. And matriarchy, makes us what we are...
But why would I be a Pimp? And what is this with this word pimp? Is it not the same word as Fuck + boast that you have come together? (the new redefined *pimp gets respect because they merely use the word) Anyone, can be a pimp... BTW.
If I were a pimp, I would also exploit women... (sorry, I really mean hoes) that didn't know any better, that needed to be tamed, and utilized... How so? How do pimps do that?
And what is it with this word PIMP? Why do all the kids say it? Why does it signify respect to apply Fuck+ over+ boast+ profit?

"you dead wrong if you think Pimpin gonna DIE"---------
(American Icon-------- Snoop Dogg)...

Why fuck over anyone? You don't have to let them do that to YOU!? Remember Taxi Driver, where Jodi Foster plays the thirteen year old hooker? And am I mistaken? And isn't everyone a Hooker? Is it not set up so that we give our time and in return get paid like a dirty little whore? Isn't that what a job is?  Isn't that our bread and butter? And you must have a job, man, or people might look at you funny, or you might get bored and get into trouble and start pimpin, man!
The word Pimp is the word fuck + context (fill in the blank-)+ Over---this is how far we have gone humanity!
Pimp me a smoke chessbro! Pimp the system, activist. Pimp your mama and your daddy too! And don't forget, to infamously, pimp dem Bitches!

(Let's continue to perpetuate violence against womym, mean... it is not like they give us life, feed us, nurture us, and sacrifice every inch of their being for the people they raise, ya know?)

 Absurdity! do you see? do you see?

We are pimped, we are pimps, we are whores, we are bores!
Vomiting Out thoughts... It's the only way to do it!

PIMP-- BABY!

By Deborah Godinez 2011 ©

Monday, June 27, 2011

Malcriada

Yo no  estoy amargada!
teehee, como le diria, Tu sabes como es esto

You know how it is when a term of shame
turns into a term of endearment...

"Malcriada!" -- malcriadita...

Well... that's what happened here, at some point
my Mama decided to transform in order to transcend
So, she took the one thing she hated... that hated her...
And mocked it, twisted it, transformed it...

And began to use malcriada to ascend into
a form of coping providing
a form of being

And here we are today... coping with this silly and horrific word
Here we are...

"Malcriada"

Here we go again...
"Malcriada"

Si, no fueras tan malcriada...
No te viera tenido...

(if you weren't so bad I would not have had you)

Or at least that's what I heard...
I can't help it be bad... be good bad... be bad bad... be good good

Ay! malcriada, that's what I say...

and I hear my own giggles squirming back towards my heart...
But I wonder what she hears?

I wonder who could have called her that word so much
that it is so ingrained?

Was it something she heard on T.V?
What happened? How do I dissect such a brain?
Would it be beneficial?
What if she is just playing with language...

By Deborah Godinez 2011 ©

Sunday, June 26, 2011

The Psychology of Now

WHY?
The now is just the observation
what is in front of you...
Can you see?
Probably not...

Desires run deep
deep in my desire

I experience objectivism...
Experience is the same but different
for you, for eyes-- (I's)

The circumstance changes
fragments of what used to be

But what if nothing -- ever really was?

"Imaginations are really the truth"

Seven years of development underway
what desire brought
out of mere chance
Coincidence...

Imaginations are really the truth

That is why I cannot "believe"

I don't have to believe I already know...
Desire Killed death
Humanity... all the same
Inherited pieces of glue stuck to the subaltern truth
--that it is--only in the imagination--
Where one can find that freedom.
But be careful enslavement exists in the imagination as well.

Imaginations are really the truth.

Seven years in the making...
"But still, nobody sees"
Seven years ago I converged into
the psychology of Now
Nature's choice
Brutal convergence but neither
here nor there...
But five, four, three, and two years ago I have forgotten
what I was
sights, aromas, nows
just after...
just now
Lo despues de lo moderno
And here I am just now
driving up and down hills
driving purpose into my mold
Functioning with reality
Being just okay with the reality,
truth awakening of the Now...
looking at the yesterday
Because it helps me see right now...
Being different... because as a human I am only
this one body
Being the same because as a human
I have things in common with other humans

Imaginations are really the truth.
Imaginations are always the truth.

Your imagination your truth
my imagination my truth

But does it really belong to either of us?

Is it not just what it is?
Metaphysical plight into the search
But does it matter once you define it?

Is it not invisible either way
Is it not only now that we have?

Imaginations
Imaginations are really the truth and I want my NOW...
"are you ready?"

By Deborah Godinez 2011 ©

Friday, June 24, 2011

Devices

Hunger strikes
Anger Bites

The world rolls on by
The world in it's Bourgeois Format
Strikes
Don't fart, pick your nose, sneeze, cough, burp, or sweat;

I am trembling

Hunger strikes
fingers bite into
my downward spiral
of general conduct

I am human, yes, I have inherited
humanity
I have inherited My existence.

Those devices, they come along
they fit into the territory...
I must use them
I must be useful

bwahahahhahahahahahahahahaha!

Opps, just farted.
ladylike appeal
storylike existence
I am human, I have inherited humanity!

By Deborah Godinez 2011 ©

Documenting

Today I read a Pablo Neruda Poem perfectly how I wanted it to sound en Espanol damas y Caballeros... more to come...


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